Monday, 11 May 2009
I was in A&E yesterday evening with my lovely daughter, getting her thumb x-rayed. Now you know how long you have to wait in casualty and I couldn't sit still. So my eyes are wondering round the place, watching people, smiling at kids (yes, I'm a good teacher!) and reading all the posters on the wall. Those who know me, understand how I love to read anything (from the back of cereal boxes to Systematic Theology). Well there's all sorts of info in the waiting room...all kinds of examinations you can carry out on yourself, so that you can avoid a visit to the hospital. Well all this got me thinking...
"Examine yourself!" the great Apostle Paul declared to the Corinthian church. Why is this a command that He has to give not just once (1 Corinthians 11:28) but twice (2 Corinthians 13:5) in the span of two books of the Bible? Because this simple and necessary act is often the least observed. The tendency of the human heart is to seek the solution for another's need, assist in the molding of another's soul and judge the intentions of another's heart. This way there's not time left for our own much needed care. Rarely, if ever, do we willingly get down to the pain-staking business of taking a good look at ourselves with the intention of seeking the real truth of who we are. We stray from it because it can often be uncomfortable and will most assuredly lead to a discovery that we would rather leave hidden. Instead, we get involved in the lives of others. We spend our days seeking an answer for their aches and analyzing their wounds. We have become masters at keeping people's attention off of us and the injuries in need of immediate attention. We have built a facade that hides our own deep pain.
Making a decision to administer a "self-checkup" is an act of courage. It means that we submit our deep inner lives to the searing laser beam gaze of the Holy Spirit. Using the surgical instrument of the Scriptures, He penetrates past our facades and pierces into the depths of who we really are. His gaze brings to light the deep internal wounds and messes that need immediate divine care. He offers healing yet we must choose to come to the Word, allow the Spirit to expose us and submit to His prescription for healing.
He offers a check up to anyone who will allow Him the opportunity. He will come to not only disclose the problem but offer a solution of salvation to save you from that which might be slowing depleting you of life.
And to cut a long story short, I guess that's where I am in my journey - allowing the expert surgeon to x-ray, test, prescribe and heal me of anything that is bringing me pain (sometimes self-inflicted!) It's a relief to know I don't have to 'sort myself out'. I've put my life in the charge and care of the One who knows me best.