Sunday, 30 August 2009

Oh it was just one of those mornings!!! I woke up with hair like Medusa, puffy eyes and a spot on my chin...I mean, come on! I'm 35, should my spot days not be long gone??!! So I had to get ready as I was preaching - had my outfit all picked out the night before but had to abandon it as there was no shaving gel left to shave my legs! Really you could french -plait the hairs they were so long! Every other item of clothing had a malfunction...a ripped shirt, a button off my trousers, a Tikka Masala stain that still stubbornly remained even after 50 stain devils...I think I need new clothes!!!
Ended up grabbing a favourite, old faithful shirt and trouser combo, shoved my hair into a sleek (not greasy!) ponytail and put a layer of cover-up on my chin - GOOD TO GO!

I then was approached after preaching by someone who wanted me to know how glamorous I looked...if they only knew!!!!

Saturday, 29 August 2009

So much of my life is spent 'preparing'...for teaching, preaching, guests coming, meetings - you get the idea! Now don't get me wrong, preparing is essential for me...but sometimes I get so caught up in the 'busyness' that I miss the 'purpose' of the preparation - does that make sense?

Ecclesiastes 4:6 - Better one handful with tranquillity than two handfuls with toil and chasing after the wind.

Wow - what about that for a challenge?! Press the pause button on life today and meditate on that.

That's all I can share this morning - I've too much preparation to do!!! hehe

By the way have you ever been this tired???

Monday, 24 August 2009

If you are a reader of this blog, you will know I'm a real daddy's girl and that my dad is a paraplegic (he has been in a wheelchair since he was 17 years old). He is 54 today! Huge accomplishment considering he was told that he wouldn't survive the week when he was admitted to hospital after being shot in the spine.

As I get older I am more aware of the sacrifices my parents made for me (more details of this in an earlier post 'The child that I am' 7th May). I'm so blessed to have a relationship with my dad where we can talk about anything. We share the same taste in music, art, comedy. He pushed me to make a difference with my life and is always encouraging me to write articles and a book (maybe one day!). He loves to hear my teaching anecdotes and have indepth, intense discussions and debates about how we can change the world. He is one of my greatest cheerleaders yet he is truthful about my weaknesses.

My dad is articulate, witty, strong, loyal, dependable...I just adore him. So I'm taking a moment to thank God for His amazing grace in this man's see him so involved in the life of my daughter is incredibly precious and something I never dreamed could be possible.
I'm celebrating today the life of a great man and cherishing every moment with him.
My mum is totally amazing as well and as I grow older, I'm in awe at the sacrifices she made for me - how incredibly blessed am I to have such brilliant parents!!!

"Parents hold their children's hands a while and their hearts forever"

Sunday, 23 August 2009

Did you know that we are in a war every day? We see the casualties everywhere — people affected by disease, broken relationships and tragedy. Looking around at all the suffering, we may think the battles in hospitals and divorce courts are being lost. But in reality, we’re losing the advanced and more important conflict — the battle in our minds.

Each day our minds are bombarded with a constant stream of nagging thoughts, suspicions, doubts and fears. While any one of these can cause defeat and devastation, we are often plagued by more than one...filling our daily lives with mental combat against an array of aggressors.

Since we fail to identify the battlefield, we also fail to correctly identify our foe. We tend to believe people, money, religion or “the system” are our problems.
A negative mind will prevent you from living a successful Christian life. Thoughts like worry, fear, despair, insecurities, sadness, anger and guilt are “Mind Monsters” – they are negative invaders of the mind.
Remember, the mind is the battlefield for these daily battles.

"Whatever you hold in your mind will tend to occur in your life. If you continue to believe as you have always believed, you will continue to act as you have always acted. If you continue to act as you have always acted, you will continue to get what you have always gotten. If you want different results in your life or your work, all you have to do is change your mind." (Unknown)

2 Corinthians 10:4-5
We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. In other words, we actively and aggressively guard our minds to keep our minds focused on what is true and right and pure and excellent and edifying. If our mind begins to drift off course – into paths that are false or impure or anxious or vindictive or negative or self-defeating – then we stop – “I’m not going down that path” – and we change the direction of our thoughts. That’s called repentance – changing our mind – redirecting and refocusing our thoughts on what is true and right and pure.

Don’t be passive with your thought life.
1 Peter 1:13 Therefore, prepare your minds for action; be self-controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed.

The mind is like a garden, which may be cultivated or neglected. An untended garden will grow with and be invaded by unwanted grass and weeds, but if the garden is cultivated, the bad things are weeded out and the good things are nurtured. Recognise any of these weeds?...

• Nobody likes me
• God doesn’t care about me
• I’m a failure
• It’s my fault that my parents got divorced
• I have these vile thoughts because I am a vile person
• God is disgusted with me because of these vile thoughts that enter my mind
• I work so hard to serve God and provide for my family that I’m entitled to a little self -indulgence once in a while
• God doesn’t have my best interests in mind so I need to do what’s right in my own eyes
• This sexual relationship won’t harm anyone and how can it be wrong if we really love each other?
• Our marriage and family problems are all my spouse’s fault
• I cannot trust God to be there for me when I need Him the most
• God wouldn’t have allowed this to happen to me if He really loved me
• Nothing good ever happens to me
• I must get even with that person who hurt me so deeply
• I’m entitled to hold on to my anger and resentment because that person hurt me so deeply
• I’m trapped in a hopeless situation
• I would be better off dead – and so would those I love
• God could never forgive me for what I have done
• I am who I am and will never change

Lies – lies – all lies

Some practical ways forward…

1. Recognize Mind Monsters

Mind Monsters come unannounced into our minds using our reasoning and rationale as their voice. They enter through the same way as knowledge, intelligence and wisdom, but they are the destructive enemies of a healthy, blessed and prosperous life. Not all your thoughts are yours – some are lies planted by the devil. The First Step is to recognize those lies for what they are – they are not just a normal and natural part of your thinking process – they are LIES

a. Recognize the effect of our internal dialogue.
Are we confused, angry, discouraged? Are we judgmental or critical? Do we worry what others think or always assume the worst?

b. Pay attention to our moods.
Feelings come from thoughts and thoughts originate in the mind. Look out for feelings of self-pity, hopelessness, despair and sadness.

c. Pay attention to our conversations.
Mind monsters reveal themselves through our conversations. There’s an interesting characteristic of the devil described in John 8:44, “When he (the devil) lies he speaks his native language, for he is a liar and the father of lies.” In our conversations, mind monsters are lies that hold us back, put limits on us, and keep us from living a life of faith.

2. Reject (and Rebuke)Mind Monsters

We cannot have a positive life with a negative mind. Our lives will be defined by the thoughts we accept or reject.

a. Commit to a P4-8 standard for your thoughts.

Philippians 4:8
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy think on these things.

Just like deleting unwanted e-mails, we can choose to “delete” or not dwell on thoughts that are not noble, admirable or excellent.

b. Set up a border patrol to guard your mind.

Just as our national security protects the borders of our country because we recognize the effects of damage to our nation's security, peace and prosperity, we should protect the borders of our minds. Any old thought is just not good enough, we have to recognize and reject negativity.

3. Replace Mind Monsters

In Jesus’ most famous message ‘the sermon on the mount,’ he had six “you have heard, but I say to you,” points (Matthew 5:21-48). He was telling his listeners that he wanted them to replace the thoughts they acquired from other sources with a better way of thinking. The same is true for us. We need to replace those negative invaders of our mind with new and positive thoughts.

Isaiah 55:8-9
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the LORD. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.”

God wants to help us replace an “I can’t help it” mentality with an “I can do all things through Christ” (Philippians 4:13) mentality. He wants us to replace a fearful mind with a sound mind. God wants to help us replace a confused mind with a mind of clarity. He wants us to replace an anxious mind with a mind of peace.

Our minds are like parking lots. Throughout our lifetime, opinions and perspectives have come in and parked in the parking lot of our mind. Recognizing, rejecting, and replacing means we start freeing up the space and park better thoughts in those spaces.

4. Retrain Our Minds

Once we allow our mind to think in a certain way it will automatically, habitually think that way until we retrain it. Like a horse on a racing track that goes down the same path over and over again, our thoughts can cause grooves in our minds with repetitious, instinctive thinking.

The Bible talks about newness, change, and transformation many times.

Romans 12:2
"Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind."

We can use our mouths and minds together to retrain our automated thought life. Replace anger, criticism and negativity with positive, thankful thoughts and words.

For example, …
If we keep our minds free of negative emotions like envy, worry, malice, criticism, judgment or self-doubt, we can allow our souls to prosper.

The Next Step…
As you begin to claim your mind back from the enemy (through recognise, reject, replace & retrain), he will not want to give up the place that he has had. You will have to do battle with his lies and confusion.

Your first step is to declare out loud that you will not allow any outside force to do your thinking–no man and no spirit. "If you don’t control your mind, someone else will." ~ John Allston There are spiritual laws that demons must obey. Your power is in the Name of Jesus, the Blood of Jesus, and the Word of God. Ask God to give you discernment of the lies of the devil.

Think about what you are thinking about. As you recognize a lie to your mind, always defend yourself out loud. That means speaking to Satan and the evil forces out loud, binding them in the Name of Jesus, and forbidding them to lie to you and to use your mind.

When you catch a lie to your mind, use this prescription regularly–and you will regain peace, your memory, restful nights, and the ability to concentrate and comprehend.

You are in a battle–you are not alone–for all of God’s people fight this same fight (Ephesians 6:12). Make up your mind not to give up! According to Colossians 3:2, set your mind on things above and keep it set! As you begin this battle, it will seem worse than ever. The reason is that the demonic powers are fighting to keep their place in your mind (and in your thinking).
Remember, regaining your mind is a process. Don’t give up! Continue claiming what belongs to you (your mind and your thinking belong to you), and Jesus will help you overcome.
Second Timothy 1:7 says, “For God did not give us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind!”

“Let the mind of the master be the master of your mind.”

Saturday, 22 August 2009

Be still...

Hi Bloggerinas! How are you this fine morning? I'm getting ready to do a huge hike with the dog to clear my head, ready for a packed few days ahead. This is how I recharge and still and know that He is God.

The word translated “be still” comes from the Hebrew term raphah. This word is found in various forms in the Old Testament, with different shades of meaning. It refers to that which is slack, or to let drop, or in some instances, to be disheartened or weak. When used of a person (as opposed to some inanimate object) it often has a negative connotation.

Interestingly, “be weak” is here commanded. This command — “be still” — forces us to think on two things: that we are finite, and that God is infinite. That being the case, we need to drop our hands, go limp, relax, and "chill out" that we may enjoy a calm confidence in Him who gave us his Son.
Spiritual serenity, the psalmist admits, ought to be cultivated in spite of the shaking mountains and agitated waters. This spiritual calm, that God commands, does not come from a lack of troubles; it derives from a steady, deep reflection on the ways God has intervened in history on behalf of His people.

So as your world crumbles around you, the call from Scripture is: don’t flinch in faith in God. Stand still — not because of a self-made confidence, not because you are the most composed person in the face of disaster, not because “you’ve seen it all.” Be still because of what you know about God.

It is “God’s past” that provides calm for “our future.” Know that he is God! Know it, not merely intellectually, but practically, spiritually, and emotionally. He is your God. He is the ruler of kingdoms of this earth and the all-powerful Creator of the Universe.

If you are the last man or woman standing, be still. “God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth do change” (Psalm 46:1-2).

Wednesday, 19 August 2009

Summer is drawing to a close and a new school year beckons. I love it! I love Autumn - the crisp air, the colours of the leaves, the new journals, school stationary, pumpkins, cosy evenings in with a bowl of stew followed by apple crumble and custard, long walks in the park, new winter coats and boots - yes I can safely say it is my favourite season. Say it with me..."autumnal"...don't you just love that word!!!

I guess on so many different levels I'm living in the rhythm of where I am and preparing for my next season. My prayer is that I will be adaptable and ready to seize opportunities when they come my way. I'm discovering more and more that self awareness and the questions you ask yourself are crucial in the process of monitoring your internal momentum - that it's important to enjoy 'now' while repositioning yourself for tomorrow.

So lots of good things ahead - Emily is going into her final year of primary education, I'm teaching P3/4 (which is a first for me as I usually have the older children), great new and fresh leadership training hitting the church, lots of events planned to invite people to, some home improvements, new series of paintings to this space! X

Tuesday, 18 August 2009

At your service!

Good morning or is it goodnight? - I'm not quite sure as I haven't yet been to sleep. As a new school year approaches and a new church season, I find my brain unwilling to switch off at the appropriate times. So what better way is there to spend some brain energy than to write a blog post!

Last night I had a beautiful meeting with one of our worship leaders and senior pastor, while hubby and friends cleaned our church in preparation for weekend events. So afterwards I rewarded my man and child (who had been living it up at the Kids Club) with a hot chocolate at our local bistro (I'm good like that!)

The service we receive at this bistro is always excellent but last night the waitress (one we hadn't met before) was noticeably fantastic. She was so friendly, attentive, warm and made us feel so important. Honestly, it really impacted me! Even Emily said, "Mummy that lady is so beautiful - inside and out!"
So as I drove home (feeling so cared for by a total stranger) it made me think of the impressions I leave with people...praying they feel cared for, loved, cherished...determined to impact the lives of others with a servant heart.

"My servant Caleb thinks differently and follows me completely" (Num 14:24)
Servanthood requires a mental shift. It's about focusing your time and attention on the needs of others. It challenges our selfish nature.
Bill Hybels said, "The toughest part about building a church that is welcoming to seekers, is getting the members to be the workers and funders for a ministry designed with somebody else in mind"

I'm passionate about loving people with demonstration, action, commitment. It's a life-long learning. Real love forgets self. It doesn't count the cost.

So I'm challenged once again this morning to leave the fingerprints of God all over the lives of others...not to appear 'nice' but be truly effective with my love walk.

That's all for now as I feel my eyelids getting heavy so I'm going to sneak back to bed for a snooze...night, night ya all!!!

Thursday, 13 August 2009

From a Greek prison cell, the apostle Paul wrote, "I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation" (Phil4:12) It's not what happens to you or what goes on around you that ultimately shapes your character and state of being. It's how you choose to respond to it. Things or people around you may be frustrating, but is your response to it more stressful or less stressful for you?

Here are a few of the ways we can make life more stressful for ourselves...

*Regularly complain about circumstances. Make a decision to stop complaining. Find a solution or accept the situation as is. In fact, my church is going to go through a 'Complaint-Free' programme. We see how destructive complaining is and are determined to fight the habit.

*Always expect the worst in people. Instead why don't we commit to a P4-8 standard for our thoughts.
Philippians 4:8 Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy think on these things.

*Blame others for your unhappiness. This gives us an excuse not to take responsibility for our own happiness. Don't give your power away to others.

*Feel sorry for yourself. "Why me?" The truth is, everyone has to deal with something. Ask, "What's the lesson here? How can I come out of this better?" Choose to allow circumstances to strengthen your faith rather than diminish it.

I think a major key is to respond rather than react. A reaction is automatic. It doesn't require thought and is generated by external happenings. A response is inspired - generated internally by thought, contemplation and prayer. It means that despite the external, you choose to answer button-pushing situations in a way that honours your desire for peace in your life.
Your decision to change doesn't mean that others aren't accountable for their words and actions. It simply means that your happiness and peace are not determined by what they do.

My challenge is to choose joy despite what happens around us.

Tuesday, 11 August 2009

Sometimes you just need to look at things from a different perspective!

Chilling out

My daughter Emily keeping me on my toes!

The boys having fun!

My sister-in-law and I (also a Nicola but without the 'h')

The dog and I enjoying a stroll

I'm just back from a few days at Benone beach with David, Emily and my sister-in-law and my nephews - and of course the dog! It was so relaxing. I got up really early this morning (after conking out at 10pm!!! I know, everyone was disgusted with me!) and took the dog onto the beach. We were the only ones there - it was beautiful! As I stood and looked out at the sea, the words of an Iona song kept playing in my head - 'Beyond These Shores' was largely based on the story of St. Brendan's voyage. Brendan and a company of monks sailed from Ireland in a leather and wood boat in the sixth century to 'the promised land' which many believed to be America. The song was also inspired by Psalm 139.

"Beyond these shores
Into the darkness
Beyond these shores
This boat may sail
And if this is the way
Then there will be
A path across this sea

And if I sail beyond
The farthest ocean
Or lose myself in depths below
Wherever I may go
Your love surrounds me
For you have been before
Beyond these shores"

Such a comfort to me. As I stood alone on that beach, I knew the depth, height and width of an incredible love surrounded me - God Himself - He is love.

Friday, 7 August 2009

Had a really fantastic day yesterday with hubby and daughter - they really know how to loosen me up and help me to chill out! At the driving range I shot a 125!!!! By sheer fluke rather than any skill!!!

So while we were out, driving up the coast, soaking up the sights, I was thinking about church. I've been chatting to God about my strengths and weaknesses as a leader and doing some inward assessing. Church growth and personal change must be intentional rather than leaving it to 'fluke'. You can't fluke good churches, you've got to build them. So I've been praying and planning how to build up our folk at church and how to reach out to our community more effectively.
While I was chatting, I realised that God hadn't got a word in edgeways...I shut up and listened...God said, "Yes that's great Nichola but can I show you something that hindering you?"
I would love to say I shouted "YES LORD SHOW ME!" but it took me a few moments while I prepared my heart..."Ok God, talk to me". God showed me how I was holding on to sentimentality. Now it took me a while to unpack this with God. Excessive or inappropriate emotion...where am I holding on to this? Ahhh, "the way things used to be" - that's where I'm holding sentimental images and ideas - "the good old days".
We have lost alot of folk from our church over the last few years (as most churches do) but without being aware of it, I was lingering after the days when we had a full leadership team, an administrator, a growing pastoral team...and now we're like a new baby church plant. We've got a great group of people who love God but it will take time to build up again. I'm so for it! And yet there was part of me comparing with how we used to do it.
"God I'm so sorry". God then said, "Let go of the relic and embrace the revelation of the NEW".

So that's where I'm at. John the Baptist's advice holds: take an axe and chop at the root of the problem first. That's sincerity, not sentiment. That's "get real," not mushy and gushy.

Time to cross over...

Wednesday, 5 August 2009

Here are the 4 weapons I'm using at the moment...

1. Endurance - 'against all odds' attitude.
2. Diligence - constant and persistant effort to accomplish something.
3. Consistency - not unpredictable, constantly the same, no confusion.
4. Determination - settled firm, unflinching, firm decisions, never giving up on God, people, church, dreams, myself etc.

It's a new season, a new chapter and we need to live our lives in renewed, supernatural strength. If we look too much at the way things are, we fail to see what can be. Have you noticed that the people we admire most, those who catch our attention, are the ones who don't stay with the reality they see.

"Some men see things as they are and say why - I dream things that never were and say why not." (George Bernard Shaw)

(Martin Luther King "I have a dream...")

Monday, 3 August 2009

Who Are You Listening To?

Whose voice are you listening to about who you really are? Life is loud. We are constantly challenged to defend and define who we are as we are overloaded with voices that can be competing and confusing.
So I'm listening to God at the moment. I'm listening for His tone, passion, emphasis. Also there's nothing like 'hearing' yourself speaking to yourself (hope that makes know what I mean). Don't always rely on others to have the right word for you...speak life-giving, powerful words to your own soul. It's hard...especially when you want to have a pity party. It takes guts to live free.

"Keep a cool head. stay alert. The devil is poised to pounce, and would like nothing better than to catch you napping" (1Pet5:8 Msg)

Isn't it amazing that we assess ourselves by our intentions but we assess others by their behaviour? In other words we look at ourselves through rose-coloured glasses and examine others with a magnifying glass.

I've alot on my mind at the moment...I've been meditating on this "In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength" (Is30:15)

There's a lot I want to shout about at the moment...injustice, deception, manipulation...I'm seeing lives destroyed and crushed by half-truths, destinies aborted for the easy way out, dreams and visions abandoned in search of a more comfortable 'way'. Like I said, I want to shout...but I'm listening to God. I'm taking my cue from Him...I wanna be like Jesus and do what I see the Father doing, regardless of how I 'feel'.

Sunday, 2 August 2009

Fight the stigma

Had a really productive day clearing out my was in desperate need of a good sorting. It was becoming like the story of the loaves and fish, the contents seemed to multiply supernaturally!!

Now here's the thing...I have put this chore off for ages. There are clothes in my wardrobe that have strong memories attached to them - my 'skinny' clothes (that my 10 year old daughter can fit into) when I lost lots of weight in the grip of an eating disorder and then there was the host of 'black' clothes that I wore during my depression. I knew that facing them and getting rid of them was another step in my journey of healing...but it was difficult. The memories of depression were especially hard.

As I talk to people who are currently swamped in the black cloud, I sense their embarrassment and shame when they are sharing with me...I pick up on it because that was how I felt. I felt like such a failure...why couldn't I cope with life like everyone else? Why couldn't I just shake it off, pull myself up by my bootlaces and get over it? These weren't just my thoughts, some of my 'friends' voiced these statements to me, reinforcing the belief that I was useless, weak, worthless.

I have to admit...this makes me mad. The truth is depression affects all kinds of people, regardless of race, culture, sex, religion, etc. It knows no boundaries and we are all susceptible to it. It does not matter if one has a strong faith, or a weak faith, depression can strike at anytime. It doesn’t matter if you pray everyday, or pray every once in a while, depression can strike anytime. It doesn’t matter if you go to church, memorize the Bible and do door to door evangelism…yes, depression can strike anytime.

Let me share this quote with you...
"Depression should be treated and can be put into remission through a course of psychoanalysis, cognitive therapy and/or antidepressant medication, supplemented by healthy doses of prayer within a loving Christian community. It is nonsensical to tell a depressed person that if he only read his Bible more or had better quiet times, his depression would surely be lifted. That would be like telling a diabetic that faith alone will regulate her insulin levels. Faith alone gives eternal salvation, but in the meantime, God has given us resources by which to make our temporal existences more palatable. Depression is certainly healed by the grace of God, sometimes directly and miraculously, but more often through the tools of His servants, like pharmacists, therapists, pastors and friends."

I took medication for my depression (under the strict supervision of a wonderful GP) and have come up against criticism for this. It was the 'God' thing for me to do. I believe God has given scientists/doctors/researchers amazing minds to create some medications that can help.
As my dad says, “If someone is diabetic, they are going to take insulin…aren’t they?”
Or, “If you have a heart condition, you are going to the cardiologist, right?”

I'll finish with this quote...“you may have questions about whether Christians should take this or that. You get in that state, I assure you, you will take rat dung.” Pastor Tommy Nelson on his depression

P.S. I do feel so much 'lighter' after getting rid of all that 'stuff'! Time to move on...!!!!

Saturday, 1 August 2009

I just wanted to share this amazing quote that reminds us not to hold on tight to 'our' ideas, insights, discoveries, creativity...There is nothing new under the sun. We all come from the same creative God.

One of my favourite authors is John Eldredge - I have all his books - if you ever need to borrow one.
This is an excerpt from 'The Sacred Romance'...

“There comes a place on our spiritual journey where renewed religious activity is of no use whatsoever. It is the place where God holds out his hand and asks us to give up our lovers* (*mine would be structured timetables, control, discipline, worry etc.) and come and live with him in a much more personal way. We are both drawn to it and fear it. Part of us would rather return to Scripture memorization or Bible study or service - anything that would save us from the unknowns of walking with God.
But if we listen to our heart again, perhaps for the first time in a while, it tells us how weary it is of the familiar and the indulgent.” - The Sacred Romance

One of my favourite songs is "Come Away With Me" by the beautiful Norah Jones - the lyrics speak to me of the heart of God who is fiercely in love with us - who wants us run away with Him ('to' Him and not'from' Him)

"And I want to walk with you
On a cloudy day
In fields where the yellow grass grows knee-high
So won't you try to come?

Come away with me and we'll kiss
On a mountaintop
Come away with me
And I'll never stop loving you"

As you read this post, wherever you are, whoever you are... listen to the invitation to lay down everything that weighs heavy on your shoulders - to let go of disappointments, hurts, confusion, and run free into the strong arms of your rescuer. Look deeply into His sparkling eyes that burn with intense desire for YOU...and just BE with Him today...enjoy His company and listen carefully to His whispers of reassurance and guidance for the future.

Enjoy your creator and let me know how you get just may blow your expectations out of the water!

Love ya XX