Saturday, 8 October 2011

How Blogging Changed My World

I've always been a 'refector' - sometimes I over-analyse situations to the extreme (my greatest weakness!) However from an early age I kept a secret diary (I recently found one from when I was 14 years old - it was painful reading!) and so blogging seemed to be the more grown-up alternative. I started blogging to record my thoughts and feelings about my eating disorder and depression, my leadership role in church and how I handled my relationships with others.

I decided early on to be as transparent as possible in order to get the most from the process and so that others may be helped (a grand ambition, I know!) This blog has been like a best friend. When I struggled with eating, I blogged. When my marriage hit a storm and subsequent breakup, I blogged. When I struggled with my purpose and role in life, I blogged. When I celebrated my successes, you guessed it, I blogged! My blog has been my confidant - it never judged, it offered me a safe place to be 'me'. It truly has been a lifesaver in the darkest times of my life.

I never really considered blogging about my reflections as a teacher - I always kept a diary for that. Although I have some posts on lessons and the children in my class, I haven't yet got into the depth of retrospective that my diary recieves. I plan to change that, as my focus for this blog will now be about me as a teacher. You know, my primary teacher told my parents that I would never amount to anything because we were a low income family and my dad was disabled. I owe everything to my mum and dad who lead me to believe that anything was possible. I got my Honours Degree and I got the first teaching job I was interviewed for - I've been in that same school ever since (nearly 16 years!) I'm excited about this new direction for my blog. I've also started a class blog and my students love it!

I never, ever imagined anyone would read this blog. I've been so incredibly humbled by the comments and emails I have recieved. I have to say a big thank you to Matthew Ray for encouraging me to keep blogging and for making me feel like it matters - that I matter.

Happy to be part of the Rockstar Meme – How Blogging Changed Your World

Saturday, 24 September 2011

Growing Pains

Well I've been back to work (after a period of illness) for a few weeks and I've loved teaching again. The class are so 'teachable' and excited about everything, that it has made it a joy to come into school every morning (at 7:40!)
However..... I have found it difficult getting used to the staff dynamics - please don't misunderstand, the staff are absolutely lovely, but I've had a hard time in my head. I keep feeling that I've something to prove, that I've lost credibility with some individuals, that everyone is watching and waiting for my next 'breakdown'
I know that I'm over analysing everything and it will take time to get back into the swing of things... I know this and yet what I 'feel' is completely different. Reminds me of a song....'feelings, nothing more than feelings...' *singing very loudly and badly*

Sunday, 11 September 2011

Come Into My Classroom

Wow! What a first week back! 'Busy' is an understatement! Although I've been working my socks off, I've been having the time of my life *cue song!* I've a fabulous class of 20 children - they are funny, enthusiastic and keen to learn. I've managed (for the first time in 15 years!) to have all my display boards filled in the 1st week! This is due to having a great class, an amazing T.A. and an incredibly supportive partner - so thank yous all around!
I was also asked to be the 'Featured Teacher' in I was so surprised! A lovely opportunity!

So, to round up and stop me rambling on (I'm meant to be marking) I've included photographs of this week.

Sunday, 4 September 2011

I'm Back!

I haven't blogged in a year - a lot has happened in that time, so let me fill you in. My husband and I are getting a divorce. I've met a beautiful man, Stephen who is also divorced and has 2 gorgeous daughters. We are so happy together and looking forward to the future. I've been really inspired by a few teacher blogs I've been reading, so I've decided to focus more on that when I write. My previous posts make up a big part of who I am, so I haven't deleted any of them. Read through them if you wish. I'm so looking forward to this new chapter of my life.